And The Research Says....

I'm insane...!!!  

No no.  That's not what it says.  It says I'm not alone.  That's reassuring.  

It also reveals that diet changes and maintaining a new lifestyle, like the gym and diet changes can be easily achieved by taking my meds and moving forward.  Good.  I like that.

I don't have to stop drinking coffee.  <<whew>>  I really was worried about that one.  I'm taking Concerta, which is a stimulant, like Ritalin.  I wondered if I'd need to cut out coffee.  Turns out, no.  That's a big one for me.  However, it did reveal that I probably drink coffee because in someways, it has a calming effect on me.  It doesn't hurt that I love it.  

My medication is long acting and released slowly over the day.  That's great because I don't have to remember to take a dose in the afternoon.  I'd be awful at that.  The downside I can find is that the medication wears off between 10-12 hours after taking it.  It could make evenings interesting.  But really, I've lived with evenings without medication for 34 years.  I am sure I can handle it.  

As I wrote in my previous blog yesterday, my medication had some interesting affects on my personality today.  Well, here I was, end of the day, CRASH!  Insomnia wasn't really an issue, until around 3-4 am.  Then Grady woke up and had a party.  Jeff got him to calm down and then I drifted off for a bit, until 5.  Then I was up and down for the rest of the time before my alarm went off.  I contemplated getting up, but it didn't happen.  

I'm going to keep researching ideas for organization for ADHD adults as well as how to cope with this.  This morning, I'm feeling a bit weary, overwhelmed.  This is a lot to take in.  I'm still very positive about my outcomes, but of course, this is all very new.  To a certain point, I'm unsure and wondering about the future.  Am I really going to be able to do this?  My anxiety and lack of self confidence definitely takes over and I start to think a bit much on the negative side of things.  

My medication is given to me in smaller dosages for the first week, then I go up a dose next week, and full dose in two weeks.  So things aren't going to change overnight.  I have 34 years of bad habits to fix.  I've managed to overcome some bad habits on my own, things that came along with the anxiety, and I'm proud of that.  So I can build on that.  Take it day by day, hoping that I'm not too hard on myself.  

Be patient with me.  I'm a work in progress, all the time.