Week One - A New Way Of Thinking

"You are textbook ADHD".  

And so starts a new journey.  How amazing it can be to hear four little words that can change everything.  It changes how I think about myself.  It changes how others think about me as well.  It makes things seem a lot clearer and make way more sense.  

It definitely gives me more hope.  I know that I'm smart enough to get a degree, but I lack the focus to follow through.  Hopefully, with the medication and therapies, along with help in school, I should be able to make this work.  Finally.  

For the time being, I'm going to focus on my mental health.  Learning how to learn.  Learning how to focus, organize and maintain my organization.  Writing things down, making sure I follow my lists.  

On the medication side of things, I'm pretty sure I feel better.  I'm not as irritable as I was.  I'm not as flighty as I can be and I find that when I'm in a store, I'm less impulsive.  I can focus on my task in the store, get what I need and then get out.  It's a nice feeling, feeling like I'm in better control.

The biggest issue with the medication is how I sort of "come down".  It is almost like a crash. It's a bit uncomfortable.  I'm good and then all of a sudden, BOOM, I'm exhausted.  I've been taking some melatonin along with a sleep aid for sleeping and that's helped too.  My sleep is much better right now.  I'll stop the sleep aid soon and stick with the melatonin.  I find that it helps a lot with sleeping.  I'm finding it easier to get out of bed already.  Whether that has to do with medication or I'm feeling more positive.  It's hard to tell.  Either way, I'm doing well.  

I don't snap at the kids or Jeff as much, that's a nice thing to change.  It must be nice for the kids, because they don't have to worry about mommy's moodiness.  Hopefully, it will translate into my attention to the home and organizing my house.  I admit, I'm tired of clutter and lack of space because of so much stuff.  I'd like to start a project and eventually finish it.  

So I guess the bottom line is this is a good thing.  Not only will this help with my family life, but as well my health and well being.  It's a positive step forward and I'm happy with my first week.  

Now, onto the next week.  This is going to be interesting.  Jeff leaves Wednesday, so I have to learn to cope alone now.